Today we discussed the origins of why I don’t feel pretty enough and how it is just easier to admit that and not that I feel not good enough. We touched on how my mother failed as a mother, the abuse, and the bullying I endured as a little kid. We talked about how I keep it all inside and never talk about that past because I don’t want to feel it and im afraid they will think different of me or just plainly don’t want to hear. It was very eye opening and a good foundation to start on. I learned a few of my triggers that I or others do and I am learning ways to help myself take care ‘of the inner’ child. We talked about how I need to tell others when they are triggering because they can’t read my mind. We also discussed sitting with the emotions, feeling them, and listen to see if they are telling me anything. It is just a very mindful approach to everything and I need that.
I want to give a shout out to all of you guys who have been so supportive in my journey. It has really helped and affirmed to me that people care about and love me in healthy ways. Thank you for being amazing.
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